Once again this year, I was struck by the holiday blues. They snuck up during the middle of Christmas day without warning. I have never been able to figure them out before, my husband always thinks it is because I am missing my parents. Although I do miss them terribly this time of year, I have been bitten with these blues a few times long before their passing.
Then last night, out of no where it hit me!! For the last 5 weeks I have been searching for those perfect gifts. I have been decorating the house from top to bottom. Making treats and wrapping presents. And running non-stop to Chorus concerts, band concerts, parades and parties. On Christmas eve I stood outside while the dogs got their last run around the yard of the day and just felt the magic in the air! The same magic I have always felt on Christmas eve. It all has been building up to the joy of Christmas morning. I came inside to sit by myself while everyone else was asleep to stare at the tree and all of our ornaments of the past. To miss my parents even though I know they are together in a better place and in my hearts, and to remember the true meaning of the holiday, Christs birth. I think I get those blues because of all the running and anticipation. And by the end of Christmas day, it is all over. In a few days I am packing everything up.
I think I try so hard to make everyone feel happy and the magic that I feel, that I forget to stop Throughout those 5 weeks and really enjoy them like I do on Christmas Eve.
It was a great feeling once I figured out why I get like that come 5pm on Christmas day.
I hope everyone had a great Christmas season! It was a great one for us!
Next week I will have to post the new tree I got for us at the after Christmas sale. Let's just say, I thought a 9ft tree would look great in our home...if only we can figure out how to make it fit from the floor to the ceiling :)